Saturday, September 30, 2006

we're great people

after i got back from my east coast trip, i was so annoyed with torontonians. people out in the east are so laid back and super friendly. and here in toronto, if you ever go out you're basically chilling with your own group of friends the entire night. there's no way you can start randomly talking to someone else without them thinking you're a loner or something. but you know what. i was wrong! i have met so many amazing people here, who the helll am i to complain?

just small things, like people who you barely know who are so willing to help you out. that kind of stuff is really touching to me. and you know they're not doing it for a favor or for something in return. they're just helping you out because you need help. i love that stuff!

BUT on the other hand i'm doing this project with this super nerd. and he is so rude! he's one of those guys who is a big time nerd, who reads IEEE standards during his free time and he kind of has no patience for people who aren't at the same level. in this case ME. so the old me would be short, rude and bitchy to him. because i don't appreciate being spoken to in a certain way. but the new me does this the B way. still nice and friendly and helpful...so in the long run, even if i'm the one who's screwing up, because i'm so nice it'll look like he's the bad guy. and normally i wouldn't have any patience to keep something like this up. but i have to work with him on this project for the next few weeks, and i need to make sure that this is done well. so i can't risk severing ties with him, or making the situation worse.

Monday, September 25, 2006

to hurt that much

i went to the airport yesterday to drop some relatives off. they were the first people here and the last ones to leave. i'm going to miss them, but how much am i going to miss them? i didn't cry and i wasn't all that sad. i knew i would see them again eventually, and them not being around wouldn't put any sort of dent on my heart.

while at the airport, there was this couple...the guy was leaving to go somewhere and he was leaving his girlfriend behind. dude was crying so much! he didn't want to let go of her, they kept hugging and holding eachothers hands. it was really cute. and it hit me that i've never EVER felt that way about anyone in my whole entire life (can i drive that point home any harder?). ever! i don't even know if i ever will. i haven't yet...and ironically i stumbled upon this song:

The Hurt-John Mayer

’m a good man
in a dark room
in a big town
under a full moon
it’s a friday and I’m almost home

I’m in a good place
full of head space
got a brand new pack in my suitcase
but it’s dinner and then it's bed alone
How do you break a mended heart?
I'm bored and want something to do

I wanna fall, fall asleep
asleep in the arms, the arms of a woman
a woman who doesn't, doesn’t deserve my love

I wanna lie, lie to myself
myself and someone else
just to feel something, something that hurts me
the hurt makes me feel alive

Gonna make it, like I need her
gonna miss her the moment I meet her
and it’s only gonna get worse from there

I’ll be rappin' there in the shower
she’ll be here by the end of the hour
I can do better
but I can’t do better now

How do you break a mended heart?
I'm bored and want something to do

I wanna fall, fall asleep
asleep in the arms, the arms of a woman
a woman who doesn’t, doesn’t deserve my love

I wanna lie, lie to myself
myself and someone else
just to feel something, something that hurts me
the hurt makes me feel alive

So long is over
nice to skip the chance you get to know you
why did I think this was true?
Because I want to

I wanna fall, fall asleep
asleep in the arms, the arms of a woman
a woman who doesn’t, doesn’t deserve my love

I wanna lie, lie to myself
myself and someone else
just to feel something, something that hurts me
the hurt makes me feel alive

I wanna fall
I wanna need
I wanna laugh, cry, say goodbye
beg, lie, cheat and steal

And i can relate. you just want to feel something, anything just to make you feel alive. like you still have something left in you. i don't feel down about it or sad that i haven't experienced anything like that yet. it was just a thought that crossed my mind.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

down

i feel so down today...i feel fat. i feel ugly.

faaaaaaaaaattttttttttttttttttttt!!!

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Saturday, September 16, 2006

dumb dumb

its so silly when i think about it logically...but i'm 25 (almost) years old and i have a crush on a celebrity. and have had one for quite some time. its so messed up, i'd like to think that he and i would be so good together. our sense of humor would click and personalities would also. but there's gotta be at least one gazillion other girls (GIRLS!!) out there who think the same thing. who try to get his attention in one way or another and who thing that they'd be perfect together.

i feel stupid sometimes, but i can't help it at the same time. i am 25 years old and have a crush on a celebrity. he rules. i need to meet the boy.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

15 minutes of fame

driving for 10hours straight, eating at tim hortons at least twice a day for 7 days, partying at night and sight seeing during the day is basically my east coast road trip all summed up.

i was really surprised as to how friendly everyone was in the east coast because there are no brown people there what so ever! so here's bascially what happened...

Day One:
So we end up leaving toronto late, because bubs had a last minute meeting with the higher ups at her company. well we actually ended up leaving a day later then planned because of her meeting. but on top of us leaving a day late, we were suppose to leave by 1pm to by-pass traffic in toronto and in montreal, where we were staying for the first night...but she didn't get to my place until 2:30. which kinda ticked me off, because we were already a day late because of her, and now we were going to be stuck in traffic which would totally screw me over, since i was taking my car and driving.

so as soon as she got to my house we cleared the air and we were good to go. ran into some traffic in toronto but other then that we were ok. we got into montreal around 8ish and then got ready to go out to dinner to my favorite place in the whole entire world. its this little thai place called chu chai on st. denis. this isn't your ordinary thai place, everything on the menu is vegetarian and the food is amazing! even bubs who's a meat eater ordered the vegetarian chicken and loved it. we ordered a bottle of wine and shared it between the 2 of us. my tolerance for wine is pretty low, i was pretty buzzing after 2 glasses. it was great though, we were laughing at eachother and making up all these stupid phrases like "watered down juice, from concentrate and freshly squeezed".

after dinner we 'went for a walk' and then met up with 2 of my friends from work. we went out for desert and then called it a night.

Day 2:
we woke up at 6am to hit the road. we ended up being lost in montreal for about an hour. i don't think we were on the right track until about 8am. this day was the longest day of my life. we drove from montreal to moncton, new brunswick. it was a 10hour drive, but with us getting lost i was driving for about 12 hours. finally get into moncton...we freshen up, 'go for a walk' and then hit a local pub. it was frikking awesome! we were the only brown people around but we didn't feel weird at all. everyone there was so nice to us. we went to this pub called the triangle/failtes, and they had a live irish band. really good food, good drinks...just an overall good time. the one thing i won't forget about moncton were the looks we got. me and bubs were just walking down main street looking for somewhere else to drink and we just got all these looks. they weren't mean in any way, but i'm sure people there don't see coloured folk. so seeing one is probably equivalent to them seeing ufo's.

Day 3:
got 8 hours of sleep that night, and had a hearty breakfast. after that it was off to bay of fundy. we spent a few hours there...and again the people were just so nice to us. everyone was really friendly and talkative and just really nice! i was honestly surprised at how nice everyone was to us. after bay of fundy we headed out to halifax, nova scotia.

got there around 5ish. i had to take a nap. after that we got ready to go out again. we 'went for a walk', and then went to this really cute pub for dinner. after that we went to another pub for another drink. we were convinced our waiter there was racist. either that or he just sucked at his job. after that we went to this club called the dome. so it was 4 clubs in one huge building. got in, we were definately the only brown people there. there were tonnes of black people but no indians. so we stayed there until it got back. we partied with everyone. it was so much fun. we randomly met some guy named kevin who said he'd come with us to another club called the palace. so we went there for a bit and then took off and went back to the dome. stayed at the dome until it closed.

after that we decided to get some pizza...this was at 3 in morning for sure. bubs wanted to stop for a smoke so we were sitting on this ledge when these 3 guys started talking to us. they were so adorable. 19 and 18 year olds. super cute and super nice. i don't remember any of their real names, only the names that we gave them which were: kirby, brampton and valley. while talking to them we would stop any coloured person on the street...give them props and then take pictures with them. it was so hillarious, everyone was so frikking friendly and into just hanging out with us. we ended up walking back to our hotel, just laughing the entire way there. 'went for a walk' again...dropped the boys off at this after hours bar and then stumbled back to our hotel room around 6am.

Day 4:
We woke up around 1pm i think...went out for breakfast and then went to the gurdwara in halifax. after that we went to peggy's cove which was breathtaking. it was so beautiful. i love being close to the water...we stayed for at least 3 hours before we heading back to our hotel.

i think bubs wanted to party it up again, but i just couldn't handle it. i guess i'm getting old and can't party every single night and my body be ok with it. so we went to this indian resturant in halifax which had the spiciest food we've ever had!!! bubs downed at least 3 jugs of water! her eyes were all watery and everything! after our quick dinner there, we went to the peel pub had a beer and then went back into the clubbing district. i think bubs really wanted to go clubbing again but i was not up for it at all. we walked by the dome, and there were line ups all around. we ended up cabbing it back to our hotel...only to realize that i left my car by peel pub :S we walked back to get it, and then bubs insisted on blasting indian music and driving around halifax. that's so not something i would do. i hate drawing extra attention to myself, but she loves that stuff. and i figured i'll never see these people again...so i went alont with it. got back to our hotel, saw a hot brown pilot and then went to sleep.

Day 5:
we went to dalhousie this day. it was a beautiful campus. after that we headed to ingonish, nova scotia...which is in cape breton. so mapquest fucking sucks. we got lost and ended up spending an extra 2 hours driving when we didn't have to. we had to take a ferry to get to where we were going and i was having issues with that because it was raining a lot, and i was uneasy about putting my car on a ferry in such bad weather. so we decided to drive there...only to get lost in the woods!! we ended up on some random trail...thinking we were going the right direction. it was raining, the ground was all muddy and i had no reception on my cell phone. i didn't want to get screwed over so i reversed my entire way back and we got onto the ferry. after that we had to go up 2 mountains to get to where we were going. it was really fucking scary, because of the weather and it was so dark outside.

so finally get to our room. again we just unpack and get ready for dinner. we went to the pub that was on the resort...apprently it was the 'happening' place to be. bubs got drunk. she had 2 pitchers of beer to herself. i had 2 drinks and dinner. she requested some songs to the dude that was performing, telling him to give shout outs to the brown girls. and she was wooo-hoooing the whole time. then there was a raffle and bubs screamed out her name hoping it would be her that won. she fell in love with this old dude and totally wanted to screw him, but he left with another chick. we met some people there from bc and from sauga and etobicoke. there was this old dude there and bubs told him he looked like robert redford. she had way to much to drink that night, i had to almost carry her home. we got back to our room and girl was throwing up in her fucking bed. it was disgusting. she barfed on the floor and on her pillow. i got a bunch of wet towels and threw them on the shit on the floor cuz i wouldn't be able to sleep with the room stinking like puke. it was pretty gross. the next morning she woke up early to clean everything up, but the room still stunk. i was kinda pissed, cuz that's really inconsiderate of her.. why wouldn't you just go to the bathroom? but she said she couldn't get up at all.

Day 6:
we really wanted to go canoeing in the atlantic but couldn't find anywhere to go. so we ended up just going hiking for a bit. it was absolutely gorgeous though, because through the woods, which were up on a mountain you could see the atlantic ocean. and we eventually stopped on this cliff and just sat there and stared out. ingonish was really beachy too, we walked on the beach and got our feet wet. that was pretty awesome. i think bubs wanted to go out that night again to the same pub to see if that dude she was into would be there, but i didn't want to. so we ordered room service, 'went for a walk' and then called it a night.

Day 7:
woke up at 5am to make our way to PEI. we had to go on another ferry to get there. this ferry was an hour ride. so finally get to PEI and make our way to our B&B. short stay there, then we headed to cavandish to go see anne of green gables house. it was really nice there too. we walked down lovers lane which was in the movie. after that we got back to our room, changed and went out for lobster dinner...where i had vegetarian pasta. so bubs thought our waiter was cute. he was OK. i think we were 'cute guy' deprived, so she thought this guy was hot. and i think she wanted to take him home too. but i thought he was a snob, because he wouldn't look at me at all, he messed up my order...and then told us that he was giving us our bill early because he wanted to leave work. so anyways, i didn't want to leave him much of a tip, but bubs forced me to. so after dinner we went to the old dublin pub to hear some live music. i was pretty tipsy by this point. we hung out there for a bit, and bumped into ROBERT REDFORD! of all people we bumped into him. i didn't even recognize him, he came up to us and asked if we were the girls from ingonish. he was pretty drunk, he was showing us the gum that got stuck to his pants. lol. that made bubs night. oh, also we met this woman from quebec and had a 5minute conversation with her in french! that's the first time i was forced to use my very poor french skills. after that we headed over to the only club in charlolettetown. i had an amazing time there! we were talking and dancing with everyone. we met some really cool people. the thing i like about guys in the east coast, is that they'll talk to you and dance with you and then if you leave they'll let you go. in toronto the guys are way to clingy. if you talk to them they think that you're theirs for the night. and i don't really dig that. so the waiter from the seafood place was there, and i actually told him that i thought he was a snob! ah well, i was drunk...alcohol just dissolves the filter that is between my brain and my mouth. after that we went to someones house with jen and jenna stayed there for 10minutes and then left. i was making all these plans with jenna, i kept telling her i was going to go to her classes with her the next morning! lol, i haven't been that way in a while! it was really fun.

Day 8:
the next morning our host woke us up at 10am and told us we had to be out by 10:30. me and bubs didn't get back to our place until 3am. so we quickly rushed out of there. i was hung over, but still drove. we went through 3 provinces that day. i got a speeding ticket in quebec. i was doing 132 in a 100 zone. i have to fight that, because i have my reasons for driving so fast. it was an empty highway, i had been driving for 10hours. i think i might have to go back to quebec to fight it though which will be a drag. i lose 3 demerit points otherwise :S

we spent the night in quebec city which is gorgeous. i want to go back and spend more time there. it seems like a really romantic place to go, only because its so quanit and old school. the biggest difficulty in quebec city is that they really don't speak english. so i had to use high school french to communicate. me and bubs slept 12hours that night...it felt damn good. we ordered pizza, drank pepsi and watched tv until we fell asleep.

Day 9:
Drive home! i couldn't wait to get home at this point. we went to coras for breakfast...our waiter thought we were mexican, so he said "ola!". lol, after that we hit the road. we were doing good for time, but there was this huge storm that we ran into about an hour away from toronto. bubs was scared, so we had to pull over and just wait it out a bit. after that we hit the road again, the weather was still kinda scary...so i didn't drive fast. dropped bubs off at home, but the time i got home it was 2am.

THE END!