tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718Fri, 25 Dec 2009 03:49:14 +0000emotionally retarded brown chick living at home with her parents...intersting? read on my friend...you have no ideahttp://burntroti.blogspot.com/burnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)Blogger514125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-7850754550835374125Tue, 08 Dec 2009 03:08:00 +00002009-12-07T22:20:06.403-05:00Frustrations – FamilyRandomwell, maybe not a killer...in the 1st degree. but for sure a 2nd or 3rd degree dream killer for sure.ugh.for once in my life...FOR ONCE (!!!) i'm with someone who i can actually see marrying. surprised?? i know, tell me about it. but, as lame as this sounds, he honestly does have so much of what i wanted in a man - it's actually quite eerie. but he's just not like your typical brown guy. http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/12/dream-killer.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-950565247004427585Sun, 06 Dec 2009 18:37:00 +00002009-12-06T13:39:11.308-05:00Randomhow many good hearted people still exist out there in the world? people who have good intentions?i'm beginning to realize that there aren't as many as i had once thought. i just assumed because i don't feel any ill towards others or ever try to hurt anyone, everyone else was the same way.but alas, reality bites once again.be grateful for the people who do actually have your best interests at http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/12/good-hearted-people.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-3605514529270645503Sun, 29 Nov 2009 18:39:00 +00002009-11-29T13:43:21.548-05:00Randomdespite all the shit that i have going on in my life, i am finding ways to smile.my rules to live by are:-never (EVER) feel sorry for yourself-always be grateful for what you have-have faith, that no matter what you're going through, it has a purpose and will only make you better or strongerthe boy is definitely helping out with the situation. we do get into arguements (rarely...but of course wehttp://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/11/despite-everything.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-8614055681275885795Wed, 25 Nov 2009 20:35:00 +00002009-11-25T15:36:42.964-05:00Frustrations - FriendsRandomi'm being sucked into a black hold where all i'm seeing are negatives. the negatives associated with my parents, living at home, friends and my job. i feel like i give so much and don't get nearly as much in return. not physcial or material things, but support and uplifting and i never get that in return.when i'm down. i'm out.there's no consideration and understanding. just selfish needs. http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/11/dark-dark-days.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-357574228515175081Tue, 24 Nov 2009 23:48:00 +00002009-11-24T18:51:16.117-05:00RandomONE:i need a new job! this new lady just started yesterday with the title and the salary that i want! and i was told that i was going to get a promotion MONTHS ago and it still hasn't happened. yet we hire this new person on and they give her everything that i want.TWO:stuff at home is shittttyyy! parents are mad at me for going out too much. they're not talking to me as of right now. i http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/11/mental-dump.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-3495762631135991140Mon, 23 Nov 2009 17:10:00 +00002009-11-23T12:11:50.950-05:00Frustrations – FamilyFrustrations - FriendsRandomFrustrations – Boysi try to live a very simple life. no drama. no worries. no games.but this past weekend has been the exact opposite. EXACT OPPOSITE.things are really bad at home, with friends anddddddddddd get this...with the boy!this weekend was one of the worst weekends i've ever had in a long time.and its not going to just blow over.http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/11/complicated.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-1166036995085336793Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:09:00 +00002009-11-18T10:11:50.992-05:00Randomi find i have to make him believe that i need him. like, i need him to make me feel happy. it helps him feel like a man.i would say about 98% of the time, i don't...but every now and then i do have to tell him i need him for one thing or another. for some reason his ego gets affected if i don't.weird.i mean, i don't mind getting help from people or whatever...but i've never had to say i've http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/11/just-for-him.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-6383743151389682549Sun, 15 Nov 2009 22:36:00 +00002009-11-15T17:45:59.843-05:00RandomI know its been ages since i've blogged here. and its not that i don't have things to write about, i really do. but i'm paranoid about blogging from work and i very seldom turn my laptop on when i get home.but i have been going through a lot of things in the past month.work is shit. i was promised something and have yet to receive. i guess that's just the norm in the corporate world though nohttp://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/11/sbeen-while.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-5240012572299141715Sun, 15 Nov 2009 22:36:00 +00002009-11-15T17:36:46.269-05:00Datingknowing your bf's ex-g/f's names and then looking them up on facebook is never a good idea. i'm sizing myself - obviously based on looks - and comparing myself to them. even though i don't want to. i am doing it. and. its not making me feel to great. i'm secure with him and obviously he doesn't ever make me feel insecure - suprisingly he makes me feel very secure and confident. but i always seemhttp://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/11/november-10-2009.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-7326816019588294250Sun, 15 Nov 2009 22:35:00 +00002009-11-15T17:36:15.829-05:00DatingRandomplanting seed *sniggers* i wanted him to change.but didn't want to tell him.or ask him.but now he wants to change too. and the best part is, he thinks its his decision.when i've been planting the seed all along. *sniggers*http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/11/october-29-2009.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-350899014673933692Sat, 17 Oct 2009 19:51:00 +00002009-10-17T15:54:32.734-04:00Randomif you can't rely on being charming or funny or witty or "cool" when you're meeting new people...fall back on your conversation skills.you don't need to be anything i listed above, but just listen and respond and that will be almost more then enough for someone to start to like you.http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/10/fall-back-plan.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-5617881311787897586Thu, 15 Oct 2009 14:14:00 +00002009-10-15T10:22:30.296-04:00Randomthings are going pretty decent with the boy. met up with him last night and on the drive home, he started at least attempting to say something to me that held quite a bit of weight and initially i was pretty offended.he told me that he doesn't think i believe everything he tells me. and honestly for the longest time i didn't understand what he said.eventually, he told me that he thought i was http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/10/constant-realization.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-1904734404700077104Mon, 12 Oct 2009 20:33:00 +00002009-10-12T16:53:14.576-04:00Randomi am feeling so content with my life right now, its almost unbelievable. as i sit here on a lazy monday with my warm cup of tea, listening to a few of my favorite tracks...i can't help but just sit back and appreciate everything that's going on right now. most of us don't realize how fortunate we are. and life isn't perfect. and nor will it ever be. but looking at everything i do have righthttp://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/10/so-good.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-4417679955155381983Sat, 03 Oct 2009 22:07:00 +00002009-10-03T18:10:11.856-04:00Randomdudes! i have tonnes to write about but can't seem to find enough time. but here are some points i must cover very very soon!- my mom is absolutely driving me insane!!! i think she doesn't like me anymore...at least she acts that way.- updates with the new boy. we've decided to only see eachother (so other boy has been dropped) and things have been good for the most part. but i'm super http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/10/catch-up.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-7907218116680748297Wed, 23 Sep 2009 14:09:00 +00002009-09-23T10:10:47.449-04:00Randomughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!so why is it, that right before i leave on a vacation shit needs to hit the fan? I'm leaving Friday night and first of all I'm sick as helllllll, secondly my parents are giving me such a hard time about leaving...but its like....hello! i'm already booked, there's no point in giving me a hard time now! and thirdly WORK SUCKS!i need to take a sick day, but can't afford to.http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/09/ya-right-vacation.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-151664018873943070Sun, 06 Sep 2009 14:57:00 +00002009-09-06T11:03:02.116-04:00Randomi'm better.i'm not going to commit to anyone unless they're willing to commit to me. and this point, neither guy has had that conversation with me. am i leaning towards one more so than the other? yes.so, i know i'm going to have to break up with one of them, which i will do. but i'm not driving myself bonkers thinking about it.well. at least not today :Pon a side note - why am i only http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/09/just-update.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-8585525951352040771Sat, 29 Aug 2009 15:45:00 +00002009-08-29T11:46:21.057-04:00Randomi don't know what i want. i feel like i should know.this isn't as fun or as easy as i thought.i don't know what to do.(written 2 minutes after my last post...confused? a little.)http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/08/i-dont-know-what-i-want.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-3674953183061514910Sat, 29 Aug 2009 15:34:00 +00002009-08-29T11:36:12.312-04:00DatingReflectionsi told you i'm typically very guarded. in my past relationships i always feel i have to put up walls to protect myself. protect myself from being hurt.i told you i've changed.but the truth is that i haven't.i'm keeping both guys in the picture to protect myself. so if one hurts me, i'll have the other one. when really. i know who i want.http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/08/lying-to-myself.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-6605148572123814648Wed, 26 Aug 2009 17:24:00 +00002009-08-26T13:27:12.442-04:00Datingthis 2 boy situation is getting me confused. i like both...but for different reasons. so will there be a point where the reasons for one will outweigh the reasons for the other?i hope so.http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/08/all-i-know-for-sureis-that-im-not-quite.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-1592991497931199211Mon, 24 Aug 2009 15:32:00 +00002009-08-24T11:35:29.133-04:00Frustrations – Careeri feel so shitty about work right now. for the past 2 years i've wanted a higher position within my company. recently my own manager opened up a postion and asked me to apply for it. great right? everything i've wanted for the past 2 years and it finally seems like its falling into place.wrong.i feel like i'm dropping balls at work left right and center. i'm disproving why i deserve that http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/08/slacking.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-4318659043343413622Sat, 22 Aug 2009 16:21:00 +00002009-08-22T12:22:05.339-04:00Randomfor the first time i had a dream about my grandfather last night. i have been missing him lately, but i've never dreamt about him. so in my dream i was walking down the street and i saw him...and it totally looked like him! but when i spoke to him, he didn't know who he was. he himself was lost and didn't know what he was doing or where he was going. he didn't recognize me either. then i http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/08/still-miss-you.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-5220110855269866570Wed, 12 Aug 2009 15:45:00 +00002009-08-12T11:50:04.318-04:00RandomYou allow people to have an influence on you. Its a decision, conscious or not, made by you when you hear an opinion or even a statement.There are always going to be haters in the world who say things to you to either intentionally put you down or are so full of negativity themselves that they spew it out with any opportunity they get.Keep your haterade to yourself.http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/08/influence-part-2.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-8265121866294595197Tue, 11 Aug 2009 16:46:00 +00002009-08-11T12:47:18.915-04:00DatingI’ve blogged about timing of meeting guys before – and how its never been right for me. Or I meet guys who seem so good for me, but the circumstances just won’t allow for us to be together.Right now, I’m again having issues with timing. So why is it, that I’ve been single for a huge chunk of my life and now I’m meeting more then 1 guy who I’m genuinely interested in. I know by the sounds of myhttp://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/08/dilemma.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-4915677977191244159Wed, 22 Jul 2009 13:17:00 +00002009-07-22T09:55:57.556-04:00ReflectionsPeople can be insecure or not have a lot of self-confidence, worry about their relationships - whether its at work, with friends or with your significant other. But where does all this stem from? Surely not all of us who second guess ourselves can be classified as having low self-confidence. And even those who do, why do they feel that way?It's because we fear how others will interpret our http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/07/fear-of-interpretation.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8525718.post-4556461785389640147Fri, 17 Jul 2009 01:59:00 +00002009-07-16T22:02:03.136-04:00Randomi can actually now feel myself falling for him. before when i knew he was more into me then i was into him, i felt somewhat safe and in control. and now i feel like the tables are slowly turning and its scaring the shit outta me.http://burntroti.blogspot.com/2009/07/scared.htmlburnt.roti@gmail.com (confused, single and brown)5